What is it that some people don't understand...........

After work went into Poole to get a couple of essential bits and pieces that we needed. As it was Saturday (also market day) the place was absolutely manic. Did not stay long but a couple of things really got to me.

The first was that the number of people that stand blocking shop doorways when you want to go in. Ummmmmmmm there is enough room in the place without you blocking the doorway up. The other is people who fiddle about with change at the tils. Now whether paying cash or paying by card I always have my purse out ready to pay but a classic example was today in WH Smiths where at being third in the queue the first person took forever to find her purse and then dithered over how to pay for it. The guy in front of us had the right money but the cashier had trouble counting it and then there was me with purse and card at the ready. I hate shopping on Saturdays in town which is why we do the food shop on a Friday night. Less people around and a better choice on what we want.

Finally got my birthday present from Kristie yesterday. The Daniel Merriweather CD Love and War. If its anything like the first two singles he released it will be good. I like music that is a little bit different sometimes. Could account for why I think Jack Johnson is brilliant. got all his CD's and find them good to listen to at work. I got moaned at for singing along to the Foo Fighters today as well. Did not realise that I was doing it though. I also have a habit of singing along with whatever is on the car radio which is not good because I a) get told off by anyone else in the car and b) if I do it for too long I end up with a sore throat. I used to be able to sing as a teenager but several bouts of severe laryngitis put paid to that.

One week to go till Cardiff and I am getting mega excited. A couple of the lads at work used to live there and kept telling me they wish they had tickets for it. Oh well this time next week we should be on our way out of the stadium. Only downside is that it is about a three and a half hour drive each way.

What a mess..................

some of the processing I had to do at work today was quite messy and complicated with all sorts of rules and stuff having to be applied. On the other hand some of it was easy and only need to be uploaded.

Its been a fairly quiet day though. My friend Linda is back from her holiday and has a cold along with jet lag. She went to New York and Niagra Falls whilst she was over there. Honest I am not jealous at all. I would prefer to go to the quieter less touristy places like Seattle or may be even somewhere like Minesota. I like exploring and finding new things to do.

I think our holiday in October will be in Cornwall. There are so many places in this country that I have been to and love and loads to still visit and explore but Cornwall is where I find myself at peace with myself. There is so much to do down there that we still have loads of places to explore. I want to do Lands End and The Lost Gardens of Heligan next time we go. I also want to find some decent places to eat rather than cooking all the time or eating at Maccie D's. I know the kids will vote for Pizza Hut though.

If not Cornwall I would like to explore the Lake District, a bit more of South Wales where my grandparents came from, of may be the Yorkshire Dales and the North East coast which is one area I have never been to ever. I would also like to go to Scotland as I have never been. The furthest North I have ever been is Sunderland.

I can't think of anything else to write at the moment so I will stop there for today.

Sore eyes and a girl with no fears.................

For some reason today my eyes have been very sore.............not sure if its from looking at a monitor for too long or over tired but I kept on having to flush them with cold water and some of the time shut my eyes for a few moments so that I could rest them and see properly again. Its been driving me mad.

Kristie seems to be ok after Tuesday nights incident and being told she has a cracked elbow. She has been carrying on as normal by going to college and popping into work and various other things. She has gone to a works BBQ tonight. She didn't know anything about it until about half an hour before she went out. She gets on well with the people at work. Three of them are going to Alton Towers for a few days in a few weeks time.

I had a bit of a wobble earlier. I know why but won't go into detail yet but lets just say that a Gin and Tonic would go down rather well right now. There are little things that trigger me off sometimes. Just something simple like an unexpected phone call or even talking to Tim can do it. Other times it could be an argument with someone or seeing something on the TV that does it. All I want is to be normal whatever that is. I need to stop feeling insecure about myself and be up front about things. The thing is I find it hard to talk to anyone, especially those close to me some of the time. Think I must learn to be more assertive in what I do and how I do it.

I am looking forward to the weekend with the BBQ Sunday not sure what we are doing on Saturday but I am planning to work from 9-1. I think I need to do the odds and ends shopping and then may be come home and sort out the garden. Oh for an automatic lawn mower..................

They should have called it off.................

Tonights speedway that is. It did not start raining here til 5.00 when we pulled on to the drive and yet it the track at Poole is a complete disaster. It is on TV which is why I am watching it. Reminds me of a meeting I went to at Reading many years ago when we had an hour delay due to a torrential downpour. Its bad that Daniel Davidsson and Chris Holder both have shoulder injuries. I wonder who else they can pull in as replacements. But what a revelation Joe Screen is. Some people thought that it was a mistake signing him in the winter but he has turned out to be the best thing to have happened to Poole this year.

Woo hoo we drew with a 5 man team. Best we could have hoped for.

Its been a funny sort of day though. The boss was off for the day and left Gwyn in charge and certain people played up. I just get my head down and get on with the job in hand. I batched in excess of 500 corperates today. Took til lunch time but it was well worth it. Meant I could get my head down and do some complex multiples this afternoon.

I am trying to find different things to have at lunch time at work. Chicken noodle salad today but it tasted like cold chicken chow mein. It was nice though. I sometimes have a fruit salad as well or something from the yoghurt bar.

I am trying to think of things to do when I have my week off at the moment. Places to go and that sort of thing. One trip will have to involve trains for Ryan but not sure about anywhere else right now.

And Kristie has been to A & E and has a small crack in her elbow and bruised bones. Someone tried to steal her phone and ipod off her last night in broad day light and pushed her to the ground. They did not get them luckily but she has been complaining of pain since she got in last night and went to A &E at about 5.30 and is on her way home now. I hope she is ok though. Dinner to be done when she gets in. What am I going to do with her? She should have a permanent bed at casualty if you ask me the number of times she has been in the past few years.

I have never seen..................

So many motorbikes in one place at one time. Again down on Poole Quay but this time they took up most of the car park on the harbourside at Baiter too. I reckon there was in excess of 2000 bikes of all types, size and age down there tonight. It was hot and sunny and the pubs and food places were doing a roaring trade. You can get special meal deals in some of the eateries. Took some pictures and will post one (and a mini one) later in the week.

I am getting to grips with my new phone. I have sussed out most of the functions now. The only thing is I am still carrying the old one around with me on silent for a few days and the other half moaned because I did not answer the phone earlier. He only dialed the old one and not the new one so naturally I didn't answer it. The good thing to is that this one does not used predictive text which gets on my nerves a bit. Touch screen phones are weird. very sensitive and I worry that I may hit the wrong button sometimes. The only thing I dislike about it is the side screen widgets seem to open at will if you leave the side bar open.

Caught the bus to work today and saw one of the girls that I used to work with. She asked how I was getting on. Said that I was happier and a lot less stressed than I was when I worked there. Its strange though after two years of working for them, I have only seen two people that I worked with and barely spoke to them. To be honest I have nothing to say to anyone there at all. I still hate the way I was treated but have realised I am better off now than when I was there. Best to leave all of it in the past.

Might be going out on an 18th birthday bash in a couple of weeks. Jenna at work is 18 on 02 July so she is having a few drinks on the night and then we are having a team night out a few weeks later. Should be fun. Its years since I went out on an 18th bash apart from taking Kristie out for hers last October.

More random mutterings tomorrow...................

Strange sort of day................

I did stuff at work that I don't normally do which was tedious and not as good as my favorite part of the job. It has to be done sometimes I know but there are times like today when my eyes started to hurt that the normal stuff would have been so much better. But you have to take the rough with the smooth and today was definitely a rough one. It was also hot in the office. Because we are a secured area we are not allowed to have doors and windows open and as the air conditioning does not work it gets far too hot. I was told at one point when it got really hot last year there were 5 people fainted from the heat on the same day. Hope that does not happen to me.

I went to get weighed tonight. Put on 2 lb but I know why. The Indian meal and the BBQ on Saturday although saying that I did not eat a great deal at the BBQ. I am going to look into more ideas for the BBQ and salads without too much heavy dressing on them. Also low syn (SW points) salad dressings. I love pasta salads but why do the dressings have to be so fattening. Coleslaw deli style is not too bad but I really must learn to make my own salad accompaniments.

Not much else has happened today. Got an early wake up call tomorrow as Tim is off to Worcestershire so hopefully an early night.

Ok so that did not turn out as planned................

Decided to have a lazy day today. Well that was the idea anyway except I ended up getting a new phone on a different network. We had to go and do a little bit of shopping and ended up in the 3 shop a few doors away from the supermarket. Only went in to have a look and ended up with a Samsung Tocco on a far better contract and signal than we have on Orange. For the past 7 years I have either had to go out in the garden or hang out of the bedroom window to get a signal. Only downside is that I have a different number now. So that means letting everyone know about it which when it is fully up and running I will send out an email. I can do email and internet in unlimited amounts on it as well as texts and 200 minutes cross network. Oh well it will keep me quiet for a while whilst I work out how to use it.

The BBQ I had planned the went out of the window when we realised that we had not put the racks from the BBQ in to the dishwasher for cleaning until 5.00. By the time they were done it would have been to late to cook outside so I cooked it all inside for a change and I am now so full up that I think I could not eat another thing til tomorrow lunchtime.

Wind has not been any good to take the kites out again. Another weekend gone by and nothing. Its Southampton Kite Festival next weekend and for the first time in years we cannot go. I have to work on the Saturday morning and the rest of the day has other stuff in store and then on the Sunday Carole and Amber are coming over for a BBQ, which will be fun.

Oh well back to work tomorrow and at least I know where I stand financially as working Saturday mornings brings me up to what I was earning before.