Flaming Tummy Bug...........

not sure if it is the same as I had last week or something else but I seem to be prone to the tummy bug that is doing the rounds. Just spoken to my Dad and he says that Mum has it as well. I got sent home with it yesterday and rested up today although did have some fun with Ryan on Wii Sports Resort. I like the Wakeboarding and Frisbee games best. Playing that really cheered me up as I have felt a bit down because of the tummy bug. Going to have a go at Wii Fit again in a minute.

Handed in my notice on Monday too. Being ill has not helped the cause but I am looking forward to the new job as it is a new challenge that I will relish.

I have also made a decision about being more positive about things. I have had a lot of time to think while I have been off and I just wish that I had thought about it sooner. I have decided that I need to rid myself of anything that is causing a negative reaction in my life. That includes spending less time on the PC, more time doing the things I should be doing in the way of housework, spending time with the kids and Tim and making sure that there is nothing that will cause any hassles like alcohol and unwanted friends around. It also means that there will be a more positive bearing on the way I do things in general like to do with the bank and things like that. Sometimes when things have got on top of me all I have wanted to do is cry. I need to stop that and only cry when I need to for a reason. Though saying that this tummy bug has brought tears to my eyes a few times.

The new me starts here....................will update soon

That was the week that was

as a holiday a total disaster. A weekend in Southend, a day in Southampton and a day in Swanage because I felt so rough was all we managed to do. Saying that we did get out and fly today. Well Tim did. I just sat there and watched. Talked to a few people about flying and what the local area is like. Or more to the point the lack of local flying sites. I wish there were more but as Baiter is the only one I guess we will have to make do with that and the odd trip to Westward Ho! for now.

Feeling a bit rough still but nothing like as bad as earlier in the week. Stomach still twinges from time to time but is not too bad now. I can eat better now as long as I am careful. Fizzy drinks and bland food seem to be working. Not sure how it will affect my weight but will find out tomorrow night.

Went to Swanage yesterday and sat on the cliffs at Peverell Point watching the Red Arrows. OMG they are amazing. Because of where we were stood they seemed to come so close to us. One of them flew over and it was almost as if you could touch it as it seemed so close. I also got some very nice pictures of them which will be on my website shortly. We took a picnic and had a lovely time. I felt a whole lot better than I did the rest of the week and the fresh air did me good. It was nice sitting out in the sunshine and the clouds covered the sun at just the right time to take pictures.

Back to work tomorrow. Need to speak to the boss about my new job and advise that I will be finishing on 07 August. I knew that something would have to be done about another job as this was due to finish in April anyway but I actually feel quite sad about it as there was less stress in this job than any I have done in the last ten years. Oh well things happen and its time to move on even if it is sooner than I expected it to be.

I hate being ill.............

it got so bad I went to the doctor this morning who said its gastroenteritis. No wonder I have been in so much pain...............bland food for the next few days for me then though made a mistake and ate some grapes earlier which was not a wise move at all.

On the plus side this week as the majority of it has been a disaster I have been offered and have accepted a new permanent job with the department of Work and Pensions as a benefit advisor in the local call centre. Its good money and I should be able to work more or less the same hours as I am now, give or take half an hour. I will miss the people that I am working with now though. I have come to like them a lot and they are just a lively team to work with. I still have to tell the boss at the agency and also the boss at where I am but that can wait til I go back on Monday.

Not much else to tell due to not really being able to do anything.

Time I caught up with things

Well been to Southend instead of Eastbourne. Very little rain (less than here by all accounts) and very gusty wind meant very little flying done. But we had fun and ended up sat around a bonfire on Saturday night. Only thing that I forgot to pack was the gas lighter for the hob and had to use matches which I hate. It was nice to get away just the two of us. There were not many people at the event due to the wind but we still had a good time.

We are on holiday this week. Stands to reason that it rained all day today. Went to the new Ikea in Southampton yesterday. What a store and how reasonably priced are they? I could have spent a fortune and yet spent about a tenner all told. Got some tea cups and saucers that are bigger than tea mugs for less than £3.00 each set. They have a small food hall in there too which had some really nice things in if only we could have gone straight home. Had to get the kids from Paultons Park on the way back.

Today we had big trouble with the front door and had to call someone out to fix it. We have had it about three years and the whole of the lock mechanism has gone on it. The people we got it from have done a temporary fix and will source the full lock in order to fix it properly.

I have also been ill again. Not content with a throat bug over the last couple of weeks I now have the stomach ache from hell. Not sure what I have eaten (except a Subway type roll in West Quay yesterday) that could have caused it. So the only place I have been today is H2O for Kristie's new harness and Sainsburys for Eggs and bread. Think I will have an early night though.

Not sure what we are doing for the rest of the week. Hope to go flying tomorrow...............if it ever stops raining................

More soon

Have I really not

written anything since Tuesday? I can't believe it is that long ago since I wrote. But then that could be because not a lot has really happened since then.

Had a review at work and got what is considered to be an above average grade for a 'new starter'. I was very happy with that especially as I thought that I was sort of just on average even though I like stuff I can get my teeth into and seem to be getting more of that now. I seem to pick things up very easily with this job which is why I feel less stressed than in previous jobs. I know it is going to come to an end one day. Hopefully not for a while yet though.

I have started to think about the Summer holidays now that they are only a week away and what the kids are doing. We are off the first week and going to Southend (just me and him) next weekend and then not sure what we are doing the rest of the week. I am looking for inexpensive places to go that we have never been to. A lot is weather dependent. I am also going to delegate tasks to them to do each day regardless, no excuses for not doing them. I am also going to encourage Ryan to keep a diary of what he does over the holidays which for some reason this year are a week longer than normal.

Watched the Speedway on TV earlier. The Russians beating the Danes and the Swedes was a real turn up for the books and does not really bode well for our chances if we make the play offs on Thursday. If they carry on the way they are I can see the Russians winning the whole event.

I am also starting to enjoy Facebook a bit more now I understand a bit more about it. I now have 6 friends and it feel that it is also helping with my issues over depression and other things. I am not getting involved in some of the games and stuff but do play Bejewelled Blitz sometimes. Not got a very high score compared to the rest of my friends though.

More tomorrow

Today has been a good day..........

Well apart from being disturbed early by Tim when he went out. But then I never sleep properly after he goes on anyway. I felt good compared to what I normally do when he goes off to Willersey and it lasted all day...............more or less.

I did a risotto with Spinach in for dinner as Tim got given some at work today. It was very Slimming World friendly and worth it. Just a bit too salty for my taste. I am trying to be more radical in the way I do food. Tomorrow we will have a salad to use up what is in the fridge. Not sure what with yet but it will be good what ever it is.

Its been a good day at work. Yesterday I struggled but today I excelled myself by going above and beyond the call of duty with the work I did. Boss says I could be out a grade ahead if I keep this up for the next few weeks. That would mean being involved in the more complex stuff. I want something to get my teeth into.

Dreamed about going away last night and for some reason we ended up in of all places Hamburg. Now I have only been there once in 1983 and can remember walking round town and knowing where I was going despite the fact I had never been there before. I have had that about a few places we have been to. Colchester and Cambridge being two that spring to mind. But then I have issues with Deja Vu anyway.

Night all

Why???????????????

Some days I feel as if I am going to fall apart. I have been not what I would call the perfect wife but a damn sight better than I have been and all I feel is lost and alone at times. I hate being criticised. I hate days where like today it has been hot and sticky and its given me a headache. My throat feels like the bottom of a bird cage and is very sore. Most of all I hate falling asleep in the car when we go out, but sometimes I can't help it. May be its regression to being a baby and the need to sleep. I have days where I could fall asleep at my desk, I can fall asleep again within half an hour of getting up but can I sleep at night????????????? Not always though it has been better. What has not helped is it has been time of the month the last few days and that takes everything out of me. Sometimes all I want to do is cry. Its as if I don't then this depression will not leave my system. Even when there is nothing wrong sometimes I feel like this. I feel I am becoming a better person. Its a long haul though. The alcohol has gone out the window and I live on diet coke and flavoured water.

I am sort of mastering the art of Facebook. Can anyone tell me what Farm Town is though as I have received a gift and have to return one and don't have a clue what it is about. I now have 5 friends on there. Its a good way of keeping in touch with people which is why I signed up. As they say its good to talk. I find it easier to talk in an email or text than face to face a lot of the time.

Busy week for Ryan next week with two school trips, sports day and reports coming out. He is off to Monkeyworld (school have adopted a monkey and he has been selected for the visit) and Moors Valley Country Park with the 'Calm Corner' group. Bless him he had a better social life than I do...................